It’s really been a long while. For some reasons, I couldn’t write for a while; a long while actually. Thank God I’m back now, back and better by His grace. Special shout out to those who kept on checking my blog. I find it humbling to know that people kept on checking, even when there was no notification for a new post. You guys know yourselves and because of YOU, I know I can’t just toss writing aside (not like I could anyway even if I wanted to. I’m always writing something), because of YOU, I know the Lord is doing something. God bless you for me. Oh and by the way, I’m really sorry for running off like that. It won’t happen again, I promise.
This post was inspired by something that happened to me recently. I do pray and hope it’ll speak to your heart.
So I was in this situation where I had to either trust God to work things out for me, or make some phone calls and work things out myself. The decision in question was a tough one, as it would affect my life for the next five or ten years. I weighed the options, and I just decided to trust God. Oh, and did I mention that I prayed? Because I really did! What about the word of God? I held on to it like my whole life depended on it! I told all my friends and whoever cared to listen that I wasn’t interested in ‘lobbying’, God will work out something beautiful for me. I was advised to talk to people about what I want, make some calls and then back it up with God, but I was bent on trusting God all the way. After all He is God and He knows my heart and didn’t the bible say we should ask and we would receive? Didn’t the bible say we should decree a thing and it shall be established? I did search the scriptures, and I just held on to the promises. I know He said in Jeremiah, that if I call on Him, He will answer me, and show me great and mighty things! And even though this particular thing seemed difficult, I got this assurance from Jeremiah 32:27, ‘I am the Lord God of all flesh, is there anything too hard for me?’ Of course, I know nothing is too hard for God and after going through Matthew 18:18 again, I was rest assured that things would work according to my plans.
I was very confident as I awaited the outcome; I felt I had all the answers already. My friends could not understand me; they felt I had someone somewhere. Little did I know God had something else in mind, something totally different from my own plans. When I got the result, to say I was disappointed is to say the least. I was disappointed in myself, I was disappointed in God. To make matters worse, those that made the ‘calls’, got what they wanted. Truth be told, I could not understand why God would give me something I didn’t want, something nobody wanted, I thought the Psalmist said those that trust in the Lord will not lack anything good? I was down, my faith was in shambles, I didn’t understand why I wouldn’t get something ‘good’, after telling people how strongly I believed. I mean, God was supposed to honour His word in my life right? I know I was supposed to just trust God, but like a wise woman once said, it’s easy to speak “Christianese” when you are not in the situation, but when you are right in the situation, it is a different ball game.
After some days of sober reflection, I knew I had no choice; I just had to trust God for the best in the situation. Thanks to some wonderful people in my life, I’m learning to trust God totally; I’m learning to accept Him, not just as my saviour, but as the Lord of my life. Now, you may be interested in knowing who a Lord is. According to the dictionary, a Lord can be defined as, ‘a person having formal authority over others, a master, a ruler, an owner’. When a person that has authority over you tells you to do something, you do it. The owner of a thing can do as he pleases with his property. Taking God as the Lord of your life means saying to Him, ‘wherever you lead me, I will go, whatsoever you want me to do, I will do!’
Remember the wedding in Cana of Galilee? Mary simply told the servants, ‘whatsoever He asks you to do, do!’ Don’t ask questions, don’t try to think for Him or worry about what He will do, just do whatever He says, and then sit back, relax and enjoy the ride because with Christ in it, it promises to be interesting. Herein lies the secret of a successful life – hearing from God, and doing His will. It’s however funny how we claim to love God and want His will to be done in our lives, but by that all we are saying is, ‘God, this is my own will, please just do it for me.’ His ways are not our ways! Being a Christian means trusting God all the way! Half or delayed obedience is still disobedience! His thoughts towards us are of good…to give us an expected end! The things we worry about will not change, but the things we commit in God’s hands will!
Where you are now might not be where you want to be, but if God has allowed it, then there is something to learn there. He says, ‘ when you go through deep waters and great trouble, He’ll be with you, when you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown, when you go through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up-the flames will not consume you!’ (Isaiah 43:2)
He says, ‘He will bring you along a path you have not seen before, He will make the darkness bright before you and smooth and straighten out the road ahead, He will not forsake you!’ (Isaiah 42:16)
He says, ‘He will keep in perfect peace, all those who trust in Him!’(Isaiah 26:3)
‘I will make a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland…’ Even if the situation seems like a wilderness, well, He says He will make a way!
Surrender to Him, and He’ll make the seemingly bad things work out for your good. ‘I have been young and now I’m old, yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken…’
When we pray, we should believe that God will give us what’s best, and when it comes and we don’t think it’s the best, we can help ourselves by believing that if He has brought us this far, He will definitely take us farther, as long as the situation is in His hands, it cannot fail. As important as it is to pray, it is more important to trust the Holy one, who gives answers to prayers.
I don’t have all the answers right now, I still have some questions, but I have chosen to trust God and take it one day at a time. Even though I can’t see the big picture right now, I know the pieces will fit together and someday I will look back with gratitude. I have chosen to speak life into the situation and be joyful, no matter what comes. I’m not denying the fact that there will be dark moments; I’ve just chosen to dwell on the fact that after the dark night comes the beautiful morning. I’m not claiming I’m in the best position right now, but I’m sure I’m where God wants me to be, which is really the best place to be in life. I just want to be at the center of His will.
Though it’s not easy, I have made this choice, that He will not only be my Saviour, He will also be my Lord. You should do the same.